I attended a homeschooling conference two weekends ago where the Maxwell family of the Titus 2 ministry were the speakers. Our family enjoyed the Friday evening gospel music session featuring the entire Maxwell family, each with his/her different instrument(s), including mountain dulcimer, hammer dulcimer, mandolin, psaltery, harmonica, fiddle, bass, banjo, and guitar. It was really neat seeing the entire family performing with joy and humbleness. What surprised me was that they learned each instrument on their own without any paid instructors. With the number of instruments (and children) they have, music lessons can be very costly.
In the “Home-schooling with a Meek & Quiet Spirit” workshop, Teri Maxwell shared about her struggle with 15 years of depression. Among several ways to help cope with depression, one of the ways that was encouraging to me was: Don’t act the way you feel. Even though she felt like locking herself in her room, or go about the day with a downcast spirit, or go somewhere to hide and cry, she decided to put on a smile despite her depression. She discovered that after some time, her forced cheerful outward countenance became reflective of her inward countenance. The more she acted cheerful outwardly, she became more cheerful inwardly as well.
Even though I don’t struggle with depression, I have my moments of downcast spirit where I want to lock myself in a room or just not deal with everything and everyone around me. When my day gets busy or overwhelming, it is easy to let myself go and act the way I feel. Many times I feel justified in how I act because after all, I have FOUR kids! I even feel more justified when people tell me, “Wow. . . I just don’t know how you do it with four kids. I could never do it.” As much as I want to justify the way I act, ultimately I know that my action does not please the Lord. What I need is to remember and apply 2 Corinthians 10:5:
We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ.
Every thought that goes through our minds must be trained or be subjected to the obedience of Christ. When we feel depressed, dejected, or downcast, we need take this feeling to God. When God looks upon us, He does not excuse us for our behavior because of number of kids we have or whatever circumstances we have. And we need to be of the sort who walk by faith in what God has promised for us and made sure through the cross and not the sort that merely walk by sight and allow ourselves to be torn down by discouraging circumstances.
Why are you cast down, O my soul,
and why are you in turmoil within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
my salvationand my God.
Psalm 42:5-6