One would think that after several babies, I’d have the “been there, done that” outlook when it comes to appreciating a new baby. After all, we have already been through all the baby developmental stages. Contrary to the notion, having a new baby still amazes me. When the baby smiles or imitates, my heart melts. I have said so many times in my heart that I don’t deserve such an amazing gift from God. Calissa is just so perfect and sweet.

I had a tough day. It all started early in the day and persisted throughout the day, but praise God that the day was redeemed via a nice and calm family dinner at Black Angus. After coming home, Calissa and I rested on the bed together. I stared and admired her long and hard. I’m still amazed and still feel undeserving of this precious blessing. Her smile makes me forget how bad my day was. Perhaps this is how God tells me that my toil as a mother is not in vain.